alone under the illuminated moon light, I hear
the “past me” singing from a far
the “future me” recite poetry of love and life
the “present me” conduct the orchestra of mine
.
I remembering all the things I have done,
I counting all the things I haven’t done
I praying for things that I wish I could’ve been done
Then, I am accepting there are things that i may never get it done
.
If I love, I’ll be hurting as much as I love
If I life, I’ll be laughing as much as I cry
there are things that form me to become stronger gently
even sadness can be changed in the thoughts of mine
.
the present me won’t forget that hope
the present me won’t forget the color of the sunrise
the present me wont forget the truth about rainbow
then I will always treasuring yesterday and honoring tomorrow
Agustus, 2008
The creature of the night
I am sitting alone in this quite midnight
the rain sing a song from the past life
the wind whispering from distant place
Told story about shadow that lurking out of sight
.
Quite and peaceful night ease tension from the day
The precious moment, I won’t trade it away
I drown in the depth of my soul…
Sinking in my inner pool
.
Suddenly…….
There something different brought within fear
The slight movement, a tint of cruelty
The weird tension that overwhelm the air
.
The creature of the night lurking out of no where
The dark monster brought eerie to declare
His yellow ayes caught mine with malice
I fight hard with despair and fear
.
Two force collide in a silent war
Just me and him in this struggle of power
Then he approach slowly like a hunter
His little dark evil hands grasping near
.
I know I lost before I realize
I run with all I might
The air echoing his forbidden name
RAT!!!!
May 7, 2008 at 11:46 PM
Diantara…..
Diantara bayangan dan cahaya
Diantara sedih dan bahagia
Diantara nol dan satu…………
Didunia antara aku termanggu
.
Diantara dua dunia aku mengambang bimbang
Makluk tanpa sayap berusaha tuk terbang
Tinggi, setinggi langit dan bintang
Sambil memijakan kaki di bumi dengan timpang
.
Masih……
Diantara dua dunia aku bertasbih
Disangga seutas tali rapuh bernama harga diri
Ditemani iman dan kesabaran, sang sahabat sejati
.
Kadang…. aku ingin menyerah pada gravitasi
Saat ku rasa ku tak mampu lagi bernyanyi
.
Tapi karna ku tak hidup sendiri….
Meski sumbang ku tetap menyanyi
Tembang yang mengalun diantara realita dan mimpi
Sampai tiba waktu Dia meminta ku kembali…………
May 01, 2008 at 11:46 AM
selembar kain
Kembali…….
hal itu terjadi lagi
selembar kain kembali membawa masalah
membawaku pada pandangan yang menuduh
.
biasanya, aku bisa tersenyum tegar
karna tak ada norma yang kulanggar
atau saat sedang kumat gilaku
aku akan menganggapnya lucu
.
tapi kini, saat jiwaku rapuh
pandangan yang menghujam menuduh
bisik2 yang kalian kira tak kudengar
membuat konsentrasiku buyar
.
Mengapa ??
bukankah disini kita sama??
mengapa hanya dari selembar kain
dengan mudahnya kau nilai sesuatu bernama iman
.
salahkah bila hatiku belum mampu??
salahkah bila aku melakukannya satu persatu??
.
Sedangkan Dia mengijinkanku melangkah menghadap
Dia juga mendengarku yang sedang meratap
karna tanpa ijin-Nya,
udarapun tak akan sanggup kuhela
.
karna aku percaya …..
DihadapanNya selembar kain bukanlah penentu
karna dimata-Nya
aku tidaklah terikat ruang dan waktu
.
Dia melihatku secara menyeluruh dan satu
Dia tau rahasia tergelapku maupun saat2 gemerlangku
yang bila kuungkapkan pada mu
Hanya akan membuat dihadapanNya aku terpekur malu
.
sekali lagi jangan tertipu dengan matamu
aku memang belum sebaik itu
tapi aku juga tidak seburuk itu
Karna Dia Yang Maha Pengasih,Maha Mengetahui isi hatiku
April 15, 2008 at 11:46 AM
Kebenaran ku, Kebenaran mu, Kebenaran-Nya
Apakah kebenaran hanya ada satu?
Tapi ada kebenaranku, ada kebenaran mu
Mungkinkah dua kebenaran bertumbukkan meskipun searah?
Apa itu berarti aku salah dan kamu adalah kebenaran yang membutakan?
Atau aku yang benar dan kamu adalah kesalahan yang menyesatkan?
Tapi… mengapa diantara kita harus ada yang salah ?
.
Apakah hanya ada satu kebenaran?
Apakah kebenaran mutlak harus satu?
.
Aku tak tahu kebenaran itu apa
Aku tak berhak berkata kebenaran itu apa
Tapi paling tidak aku tau apa itu yang tidak benar
Aku berhak berkata apa-apa yang tidak benar
.
Seraya berharap kebenaranNya yang agung sudi hadir
Seraya menghadirkan kebenaranNya yang mutlak mengalir tanpa akhir
March 25, 2008 at 11:46 AM
Diversity Union
U and I are different
We both has different point of views
Has different histories n’ will tell different stories
We has our own way to paint the world
.
But we stood on one world,
Breathe the same air,
Cries whenever gets hurt,
Bleeding in the same color
Treasuring bonds in the very same way
.
So which one is the illusions?
The colors of rainbow or the color of light beam?
.
Diversity Union ;
One consists of many, need many to built one……
BGM : Utopia-Alanis Morisete
March 15, 2007 at 11:44 AM
.
Aku
Bagaikan air
Mengalir tanpa jemu
Terus…..mengikuti aliran waktu
Mencoba berubah tanpa mengubah yang zahir
.
Kadang aku terperangkap
Alirankupun terhenti bagaikan mati
Danau yang gemerlap pun terasa pengap
Resah, gelisah, sirna damai di hati
.
Perlahan, setetes demi setetes tapi pasti
Entah dengan kebaikan mentari,
Belaian bayu ataupun kasih sayang bumi
Kukan mengalir kembali
.
Terus mengalir dengan setitik harapan,
Selama masih ada nafas kehidupan………
Tapi dimanakah dan kapankah kucapai laut biru?
Saat harapan dan kenyataan akhirnya utuh berpadu
February 13, 2007 at 10:18 AM
.
Time
I wish I could freeze the time
So I can savor the moment for a while
Lock up in my world of peace
Abandoning all of the pressure
.
But No!!!!
The world won’t stop rotate
The time wont freeze
It’s a big no…. no
.
I had to move forward and fast
Or surrender and being left behind
I’ll tries to keep running till the end
But rest whenever I must
.
Time still ticking
Right now being so unfriendly to me
Sometime, it feels like mocking my own failure
Or maybe it just tried to teach me something?
February 10, 2007 at 06:30 AM
A princess who turn into a frog
When I wake up this morning
Not feeling refreshed nor relaxed
Just sick and tired instead
Itchy, I can’t stop blinking
.
Tottering to the bath room
The splash of water hit me like a boom
When I saw a mirror
A face looked back at me in a horror
.
Dimly, a reflection emerge from thin fog
The princess is turn into a frog!!!
The resemblance unwittingly so alike
It surprisingly brighten the day, so I smile
.
Should I find some prince charming?
Or should I just take some pill?
Even the first choice is more tempting
But both logic n hearts knows the real deal……
.
Memo 2 myself :
Never (again) to sleep while still crying
Never eat some food that I might allergic to
When I stubbornly combine the two
Surprise! There’s a frog come visiting ^_^
*Me and my twisted ways to brighten up some grim days
a little bit hyperboli,humor and smile…
that will do ^_^
January 14, 2007 at 04:42 PM
Until that day….
For the bird that born in a cage
Freedom could be a punishment
.
For the bird that live in a cage
Freedom its something that she always dream of
Something that she wish
Something that she can’t imagine to happen
.
For the bird that used being cage
Her wings it’s already become weakened
She can’t fly high
She can only crying, envy the wind
.
But nonetheless,
It is something that she want
The only place that she really belong
.
So she will learn
She will try with all she might
And then one day
She could soaring high up in the sky
Dancing above the cloud
Singing with the wind
.
Until that day then
Until that day….
December 25, 2006 at 06:36 AM
Public secret
I know it
U know it
And I know that U know
But I doubt U know that I know
Moreover to know that I know that U know
Or to know what I need to know in order to know that U know
Dizzy?? ^_^
That’s why it called public secret
Cant be told, even if I want to 
January 12, 2007
Happy
Be happy is really easy:
U just act happy
So every body think U are a happy person
And through their ayes U can see “the happy U”
Then, U just had to believe that U are “that” happy
So finally U become trully happy
Confuse??
So am I, but it really worked, though ^_^
November 17, 2006
Pandora Box(s)
U the one who opened it
Although all of these years we’ve been trying to protected it
So….Don’t regret it
.
Though I wonder,
Can U still look on these people in their ayes??
.
Some says “live like a game”
But it doesn’t meant live is a game
We cant simply replay, save or quitting whenever we want
In live there always something that cant be undone
That’s why in this game the wise one win
.
But, relax…..
No need to panic
U only opens some of it
And despite all that U did to us,
We’ll try to keeps guarding on the others
.
Coz unlike U
We have a clear mind
We realize all of the consequences
.
But then, when I think again
Maybe our mind not as clear as I though it should be
Coz Its U’rs, not our’s
So why do we bother?? ^_^
November 14, 2006
Strong and wise
If I close all of my senses ,
I won’t gaze into sadness
If I forget the feeling of warmth,
I won’t feel the pain and hurt
.
But its also meant I’m neither live or die,
Just floating in between
So I will take sorrow again into my hands
Even if the hardship will eating away my heart
.
But if I can gain happiness,
Then the suffering will be worth
For I want to grow stronger and stronger
For I need to grow wiser and wiser…..
In The end……
(Kok jadi merinding sendiri ya?? >_<)
Ready or not, one day it will all come to an end.
Our plans, hopes, happiness and ambitions will finally disappear
Also our jealousies, frustration, lust, pain and anger
All that left is just a big fat void…..
.
On that time,
Maybe we finally realize
What really matter in life
What are we should chase in our life
.
Maybe we all came to this world
Being given the chance to life
Being given body that has limits;
To explore all the possibilities that has no limit,
To learn how deep and ‘extensive’ the world are
.
So what will matter?
How will the value of our life be measured?
.
In the end ;
What will matter is not we got but what we gave.
What will matter is not our success but our significance.
What will matter is not what we’ve learned but what we’ve taught.
What will matter is not our competence but our character.
What will matter is not how many people we knew,
But how many will feel a loss when we’re gone.
.
Life is full of choices, full of possibilities
Dont waste it n don’t be afraid
Cos we’re not alone
.
We all human makes mistakes
But as long as we still alive
We still can correct it and improve
.
Let Living a life that matter
That can “touch” other soul too
That eventhoug we already gone
Our presence will always linger
Everlastingly………. (Amiiin)
.
BGM pas nulis :
Bila waktu telah memanggil
Teman sejati hanyalah amal
Bila waktu telah terhenti
Teman sejati tinggallah sepi…….
Taken from : Bila waktu telah berakhir
By : Opick
September 08, 2006 at 04:58 AM
The foolish game
Again, I want to sound a little bit poetic
cause the things that I will say so dilemmatic
Once upon a time
Life a women who love to playing game
.
It’s a game of heart
Playing as the victim is hers art
But if U look really closer
U realize, that she the doer
.
She the one who hurt other
She the one who make our life’s in mire
Recently, she try to playing as a Goddess
Everyone who against her will, she curse
.
Never try to realize or understand
That we had done everything we possibly could
But we aren’t an angel or holy creature
We cant make things to change
.
Unless U let us to tread U
Unless U give as the reason to love U
So please, I beg U;
Enough its enough,
.
No more game,
No more whining……..
Act as Ur own age,
Be wise for Ur own good,
.
And mind Ur own business,
Dont event think to messing around with my beloved one(s)
June 21, 2006 at 06:20 AM
The prayer
I think if feeling has a form
It must be fluid
Cause……..
Sometime it’s so overflow
sometime the tide is so high
And another time it all subside
Just left the emptiness
And these days….
my feeling are varied
It change rapidly
I just don’t understand myself
I hate when I’m not myself
Because I tend to behave differently
I tend to said
What I shouldn’t have said
And I tend to conceal
When I should’ve been free
In the end…
I’m just make a fool of myself
Oh..God Please
Let me be a better me…..
(Amiin)
March 27, 2006 at 06:48 PM
The mask
Today I become little bit confuse…
Cause there a people said to me that;
“life is going easy on U”
“U seem so trouble free”
It really make myself surprise
where did it come from?
Is that because I rarely serious?
Oh Please……
Don’t U know??
The mask that I wear
Is really hard to take off
It already become part of me….
Even though it only a half…
It already become my sanctuary
It what I need to face the world
And the cruelness of reality…
But yet, soon I realize
Is not really that bad…
as long as I can be who I really am..
And at the same time be who I want it to be…..
So U can think whatever as U wish…..
Fine by me…...^_^
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